It never ceases to amaze me how God can bring a friend along to say the right thing at some of the most unexpected yet much needed times. This past weekend I took a trip back home to Kansas City. While I was there I went to my home church and caught up with some friends. Before service started I had a chat with my friend Alaina about plans after school. I laughed inside [This is the part where you check out my blog post about silence if you haven’t read it yet!]. Not knowing about the whole “temper tantrum” I had a while ago, she said something very important to me, “if God has opened the door, walk through it”. So simple, but it blew my mind. It was convicting yet comforting that she said that! I told her that I was a little nervous to walk through a door not knowing where it leads and that I’d feel safer with a laid out blueprint…at least for the next year of my life. She encouraged me that even though I don’t know exactly where it will lead me, if God has opened the door for seminary the least I can do is just start applying to schools and see where it leads me. Being the stubborn person I am, I still told her it would be nice to know exactly where it’s going to take me. She said unfortunately that’s not how things work, although we’d like it to. Wishful thinking! Sometimes we just have to take those little steps and God will begin to reveal our purpose as well trust Him and take those steps.
See, I’m one of those Type-A people. You know, color-coded agendas, packed iCal; not to mention the calendar on my phone. I plan, plan, PLAN! Spontaneity is not my best friend. Clearly, that’s not what this season is about; there have been tons of surprises in life recently. This season is about truly letting God take control…no co-pilot business. God doesn’t need that. He doesn’t need my help…at all. He’s had my whole life planned out long before my great-great-grandparents thought about birthing my great-grandparents and them birthing my grandparents and so on until my actual birth. Long before college, and my 4 ½ different majors (hence my 5th year senior status…it happens), and long before I truly gave my life to Jesus and entered into the best relationship ever, God had a plan. And I had absolutely no kind of say-so in the planning committee and applications to join a committee are not open now! On top of that, I love to write…including the story of my life, but God is in no way interested in publishing my book. He is Charles Dickens and I am a preschooler trying to figure out how to properly write my S’s and Y’s (you know those were the most difficult letters to master!). Bottom line, I’m not qualified to write my story…heck I wasn’t even qualified to safe myself from sin. I can’t possibly figure out the story to my life. With that said…
Let’s see what the Word says! The scriptures I’ll be meditating on are…
11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare[a] and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Matthew 6:25-34 25
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. 34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
Job 38 – In this passage God pretty much puts Job in his place…when I read it I was definitely put in mine. It’s a passage that is sure to bring you to humility before God.
4 “Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth?
Tell me, if you have understanding.
5 Who determined its measurements—surely you know!”
Ouch! And that’s only a glimpse of it.
So, I’m sure I’m not the only one struggling with these things called control and trust. What’s keeping you from walking through the doors of the unknown? What’s keeping you from walking through doors that have been undoubtedly opened by God? I pray that as we carry on this journey to womanhood that we’ll be diligent in our quiet times with God and come to know our place in relation to God. Our response to what God does shouldn’t be to questioning and pouting, but simply falling on our faces in worship. I pray, not just for myself, but that we all can really trust the fact that He is working everything out for our good and, most importantly, for His glory. Until next time! I have some applications to fill out…and a GRE to take (fun, fun!).
Love you all, sisters!